9/12 college

9/12:

"I can swing on the swing all by myself now, even though i miss you pushing me."
i am independent. i make my own decisions. i do what i want. i stay out late. i study when i need to. i sleep where i want to. i go to parties. i go to socials, i talk on the phone, i go on the computer and you never know. you never will know. but that doesn't mean i don't reminisce about when i went to you with all of my problems. when it was you telling me that i should come home, or that i should study- that i would regret not doing so later. when you helped me through my decisions, even though you always ultimately let me make them on my own. you taught me about life. i'm far away now, but i miss being near you. i will always wonder- what if life was so much different? what if it wasn't the norm to go away? what if i had known you longer, better, more completely? what if leaving meant moving next door, not four hours away?